Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Pulp Fiction Pogo remix

I Googled “ear melting” and this came out among top results. It is so absolutely crazy and brilliant that I just can’t stop listening to it:


Tuesday, April 29, 2014

"Secret harmonic emotions"

I'm so going to work and the only thing I think about is all the music I will listen to throughout the day. I remember words from an Alec Empire song - "Can our love survive in the absence of drugs?", and I can't help asking myself: "Can I survive in the absence of music?"

I suppose I could-but it would've been such a waste of good potential.

Sunday, April 27, 2014


When I get angry I'm really glad I don't have superpowers.

That moment...

That moment when you text someone important for you, and there's no reply for what seems like ages, and your phone finally alerts that you've received a new message, and you see it's from someone else?

It sucks big time doesn't it? Because you start asking yourself unpleasant questions and jump to painful conclusions and pretty much a damage is done simply because someone is too lazy to pick up the damn phone!

OK, I feel a bit better now. Couldn't escape the conclusions thought. I have only so much patience left.

It is always the one who cares more that gets hurt more. Don't you wish sometimes you could unplug your feelings? But then again I don't think I would've if I could. If there's any joy in this world left for me I wouldn't miss it no matter the price I'd have to pay for it.

It takes all kinds

I was peeking at some Twitter profiles and you know what? It is somewhat comforting to know there are people way more delusional than me. The sad part is that apparently they are completely in the dark about that.

Saturday, April 26, 2014

Adulthood is overestimated

Sometimes I miss the time when I thought I'd figured out the meaning of life. The world seemed more...orderly. As if youth had all the carrots and now all that is left are the sticks.

But, and I just thought of that, when you're older you might be the one holding the stick. Unfortunately that perspective doesn't make it any more appealing to me. There's a catch to being down-to-earth - you can't escape some of the dirt sticking on you.

Word of the day


P.S. That could as well be the most passive-aggressive word there is. I can't say I'm proud with my choice but right now I'm too bitter to fight back.

Oh well. Some days the red pill overcomes the blue pill and that's it.  There's always tomorrow. New day-new delusion.

Friday, April 25, 2014

That’s kind of sweet

OK, wrong choice of words. It took the man just a click but, nevertheless, it made me feel good...for about 10 sec :)

And the tweet was about this track:

I'd say...

There was never a better time for a miracle. 

Edit: Wishful thinking is such a bitch. 

Edit of the edit: Maybe it wasn't wishful thinking but more a matter of mere statistics. I just thought that it was, you know, about time.

Rainy spirits

“Tap-Tap” sing the raindrops
washing away the seconds.

“Tick-Tock” so the life goes.

Thursday, April 24, 2014

A catch

The trick is not to give a damn - which is hell of a trick in itself. There's no easy way, that's for sure.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Back to work mode

According to Wikipedia jet lag symptoms include: cognitive effects such as poorer performance on mental tasks and concentration, increased fatigue, headaches and irritability.

That’s exactly how I feel after four days of rest (thank you, Easter!). The things we do for a paycheck... ;)

"This will make you love again"

I’m in a real danger of OD-ing on this song today and why not-it’s an irresistible offer is it not?

Delicious trivia

Sometimes it all comes down to something simple :)

Monday, April 21, 2014

Sign and significance

So I was watching “Sense and sensibility” yesterday.

Did you know that in Jane Austen’s time (the book was published in 1811) in case of a mutual romantic interest between a man and a woman it was a custom for the man to cut a lock of the woman’s hair as a declaration of their shared feelings and that was considered an act of intimacy?

That probably wouldn't have impressed me as much if a few hours before that I didn't watch a few “Sex and the city” episodes. The ways of today's society change not in steps but in leaps. I cannot even begin to imagine how things will be different in just, let's say, 20 years from now.  

Sunday, April 20, 2014

That awkward moment...

...when your father calls you on the phone to tell you that he saw In a newspaper a picture of Jared Leto and he wants to make sure you didn't miss the article.

OK, it wasn't exactly awkward. That was actually very nice of him. Quite unexpected but it felt really good.

Saturday, April 19, 2014

AIW stands for...

When I was buying the ticket for my first 30 Seconds to Mars concert (Berlin, June 6, 2014) I thought that Adventures in Wonderland was the name of the support band.

Are you done laughing? Good.

What? Prior to that my only experience with buying concert tickets online was with Nine Inch Nails and their tour page had basically the same format: date of the event, city and country, name of the venue, name of the support band. So it didn't even occur to me that Adventures in Wonderland could stand for anything different from a support band. I became aware of what it actually meant when I was already at Spandau citadel waiting with the other fans. "What is that line of people over there right at the entrance? VIP tickets? There are VIP tickets? Really?!"

There was so much I didn't know.

Thursday, April 17, 2014

"Love is Thursday"

A friend sent me this and I loved it so much that I translated it (hopefully I didn't ruin it). I wish I could write something like that:

*** Love is Thursday.
Love is something like Thursday.
In high school a girls asked me: “Do you believe in love?”
And I said: “That’s the same as asking me if I believe in Thursday.”
On second thought-but that’s correct!
We are sure there is Thursday.
It exists.
It is there fundamentally and in fact it is there only from time to time but where it is when it isn’t here-no one knows.
And as much as you want it to be Thursday it can’t be on Wednesday. No matter how you push.
And it can’t be Thursday all the time.
If it isn’t today only in a few days it will be.
It will come and it will go-with the dreams, the morning hunger, work-because it’s a work day, the long afternoon, the fatigue, the rest, the sleep and the ending.
Everything fell into place.

Love is Thursday. ***


Nice round number

Ha, I just noticed the current status of my Twitter account and the number of my tweets: 666. No actual meaning but buzzing with titillating connotation :) 

Best boys

When someone’s in the limelight do you think about the person in charge of the stage lightning? Me neither.

How come there are no best girls, hmm? 

“Time to live, time to love”

My next set of 30 SECONDS TO MARS concerts couldn’t come too soon :)

“I’ve been dreaming

of things yet to come…”

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Random clichés

People talk too much and listen too little.

It's true is it not? Well, how hard is it to make it untrue?


Yesterday was such a lovely day-nothing more and nothing less but just enough. I pulled that mind trick again-commanded myself to enter into good-spirited disposition and once again it worked. I’m getting quite impressed with myself ;)

As for today…who know? As for now not knowing seems to be the best part.

Yes, that's a day-to-day survival. And that is not very impressive but it's OK-for now; because it is "now" that matters. I'm fine with whatever will get me through the day.  

Tuesday, April 15, 2014

You got: Yellow Aura

I took the test and came out as “yellow”:

Your aura is yellow. You can always be counted on for optimism and encouragement, and you have a knack for saying just the right words at the right time. Those with yellow auras tend to have great health, probably in part due to their pleasant disposition. Though you occasionally over-analyze situations, you only mean to make yourself and others as happy as possible.

So now it's official-I’m a good listener and a reliable friend. Party animal I may not be but if you are most likely it would be me holding your head while you throw up. It looks like I'm a natural born support. Phui.  

Monday, April 14, 2014

“It’s a brave new world”

Another magical morning promising invigorating colours, charming coincidences, heart-warming encounters and  irresistible daydreams. And if I say so it will be so.

I love to love. Period. I hope it will be used against me :) 

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Soon :)

“You know what you are? C’mon pigs! MARCH!”


Days go slowly, years go fast.
Go figure.

There's controversy in everything. I love people-in general that is, but I need to get away from them to remember why. Once I'm closer I start to wonder why I didn't stay away in the first place. And so it goes-forth and back, forth and back… But then again-isn’t it that what life comes down to?

Saturday, April 12, 2014

If only - part xxx

If people put into expressing positiveness at least half the energy they put into whining this world would've been much more enjoyable and much less troubled.

I remember reading this on the net awhile ago: "Why are you whining to me? Don't you have a blog?"

Could it be people skip on positive thoughts due to lack of interest? It could, of course, people are not very smart.

Kings and Queens featured in the HOW TO TRAIN A DRAGON 2 trailer

Well, the title says it all and the only thing left for me to add is that it fits perfectly :)

Friday, April 11, 2014


I just went through the entire Billboard Magazine’s Finalist List for the 2014 Billboard Music Awards. Oh dear! What a joke!

Top Rock song - Capital Cities with "Safe And Sound"?
Top Rock Album - Lana Del Rey with "Born To Die"??


Mind tricks

Yesterday I went to work in a cranky mood – the I-dare-you-to-say-something-so-I could-have-an-excuse-to-bite-your-head-off type of cranky. At the office it kept on getting worse and worse and just as my chin was about to hit the floor I though “Wait a minute! Why am I doing this to myself?! I know better than that. I deserve better than that!” And I forced myself to smile and be chatty and sociable. At first it felt unnatural but it kind of gathered momentum and my mood kept on rising up, up and up and it went so high that by the end of the day it felt so good to be with my colleagues that I didn't want to leave the office-which is unheard of :) So much for the power of consciousness and will. It’s all in the mind.

Moral: do yourself a favor and don't take yourself more seriously than just enough. No one but you is fooled anyway.  

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Viewers discretion is advised

This morning I’m especially intolerant to stupidity. This can’t end good…for everyone careless enough to ignore the warning signs. I’m sick of shallow words. If you can’t back up what you say don’t even bother to speak, OK?

Some days headphones are my best friend.   

But it’s all for the best (hmm, lately I say that a lot). My faculty of adjustment is tested today and I’m pleased to say that I passed impeccably. Keeping a grudge, no matter how justified, is immature and always backfires. If I am to keep my mind busy with something it better be beauty and love and lust...oops! OK, clearly I'm a 30 Seconds to Mars addict :)

This entry makes no sense does it? Must be the pre-Friday madness. But at least the track is great.      

Wednesday, April 09, 2014


Some mornings ooze magic. I don’t know how or why but I neither need nor want to know. I only know that when it happens I’m in love with life. In such moments as if everything is a part of me and I’m a part of everything; and I dissolve in it in a harmonious unity. And of course those words make no sense because reason can’t explain the beauty of special moments.

Sometimes it's a beautiful mess in my head.

Monday, April 07, 2014

The better humans

They don’t make schemes, they don’t show off; they don’t gloat or talk behind your back. What you see is what you get-top that if you can.

And yes, my heart did melt :)

Sunday, April 06, 2014


Here I am, alone, sitting at my favorite café on a cloudy Sunday afternoon, feeling good about my life for no reason at all. How come so?

I was thinking-I should actually be very grateful that all the bands I've ever been dying to see never came to my country so I had to get over my fears and frustration, kiss my comfort zone goodbye and travel. It is beyond words the effect it had on me, on my perception of life and people, how it changed me and my life for the better, much better.

Maybe it's the wake up call I received from a very good friend about a month ago. She couldn't be more wrong about her choice of approach but the fact remains - since then I'm more easygoing about troubles and childishly appreciative of everything good that happens. So I guess that whatever doesn' t kill me is for the better.

Saturday, April 05, 2014


If I could wish for a gift it would be the gift of perfect timing-to be at the right place at the right time.

Friday, April 04, 2014

Twisted sounds, pretty sounds

I can play that song on repeat all day long

Thursday, April 03, 2014

True, true, true

Each day I get closer and closer to eradicating the anger in me. And one day I will be free.