To go or not to go...

You know that itchy feeling when you want something bad, so bad that you don't give a damn if it's right or wrong-OK that sounds unnecessarily dramatic; in this case if it's reasonable dash mature (how unappealing) or not. I found a gig I want to go to. There isn't much time to think and I'll have to make my mind within the next few days-man, why didn't I check the site earlier!?

Alec Empire in Budapest, Jan 15th, 2009 – some less than 20 days from now! If only the desire to see that guy perform live wasn't so…maddening.

what do you know...

A rare day-my soul is filled with love towards all people. Feels good not to pretend.

Now is good

Simplicity. Little things. Gestures of attention. A genuine smile. A picky :) No rush. No pushing. No competition. No hidden agenda. No regrets. No guilt. No looking back. No expectations. Now is good.

And all that could have been

In an absolute world now I would’ve been on my way to Las Vegas. In the real world I’m stuck in I’m still mad as hell at destiny and the idiotic government rules that made it impossible for me to go. Unfortunately for me I know very well what I’m missing.

No, I’m not over it. May it be childish-I don’t care.

I NEED MY CONCERTS!

I feel cheated.

Duh!

Alright, for a second day in a row I’m glued to nin.com compulsively pressing F5 as if that would change the fact that my only dream will never be realized.

Pathetic.

"Curtain call"?! WTF!!!!!!!!

Dec 3th, 2008, nin.com:

"The shows we have announced in 2009 and any more that may be announced will be a completely different approach with some different personnel and will likely be the last for the foreseeable future."

This is a nightmare-I must be still sleeping. This can not be happening.