Happy birthday to me

May I be happy and...well, "happy" covers pretty much everything so that'll do. It wouldn't hurt to be nicely surprised now and then.

How much is "too much"?

I remember that in an old interview Brian Molko quoted someone (whom, alas, I don't remember, and Google is uncharacteristically uncooperative on the subject) but the words went like this: Too much of everything is just enough for me."

I wouldn't know if it's true, I haven't had too much of anything (which is merely a clarification, I have nothing to complain about), but that quote flickered in my mind when the waiter at my favorite café brought my coffee:

It may not seem like much but was in fact more than enough. Maybe I am easy to please or maybe I am happiest when I get something that I haven't even asked for. In any case too much feels just right :)

P.S. I am easy to please...but it isn't easy to guess what with. Information is a valuable asset in all areas of life. In order to push the right button you need to know first which is the right one.

Take five

"What have I become?"

It's not that I want my life to be different - my life is good (enough) as it is. It is the world I have to live in that makes me unhappy, it is the people of today that bring me down. Changing that is beyond my control. And no, "if you can't beat them, join them" doesn't work here. Just because the world is as it is doesn't mean and will never mean that I will get used to it and accept it eventually. I am really afraid that one day "the wrong" will become "the common" and no one will be able or bother to tell the difference.

As long as it works...

Last night I watched "Sex and the city", the movie. Surprisingly I liked it, quite a lot at that. At some point I got so absorbed in the story that I forgot it was a movie. It could be because all the characters are in a way a part of my life for years now and it was like catching up with friends I hadn't seen in awhile. Or, it could be I am so hungry for romance that I would settle even for junk food . Whatever the truth is (as if that serious word is appropriate for so frivolous a thing as romantic comedy) I had a good time and it's all that matters. 

Actually it matters a great deal. Lately having a good time has become a luxury. For the last couple of months my mind was preoccupied with unforseen crisis situations and my guess is it simply ran out of resources for anything else. And if watching a stupid movie does the trick so be it. 

The perfect quarrel :)

I saw this on a Russian website, hopefully my translation will do it justice:

- Go to hell!
- You go to hell!
- Shall we go together?
- Let's go.

Getting in the mood

I have an anniversary tomorrow. On June 6, 2013, I was in Berlin to experience my first Thirty Seconds to Mars concert. Ha, little I knew that 14 more would follow :)

So I can't help thinking that it would be perfectly appropriate if the first single to the new 30STM album were to be released tomorrow. 

Seriously guys, it is time.

Of animals and humans

No animal is bad. Animals are what they are and they can't be something else because they don't have the choice to be something they are not.

But people do. And that is the main difference between people and animals.

Count to 10

I just need to make it through the day, that’s all. I manage to do it any other day so there’s no reason why I shouldn’t today, right? I simply have to turn a blind eye on the stick and imagine a carot. However, the point is to make it with no casualties and collateral damages. Ah, we’ll see how it goes.