Monday, February 26, 2007

No comment

Oh those creative bright NIИ fans :)))

Those words however don’t apply to me. Brilliant kids (when did I get that old ?!)

Copied from someone’s signature in The Spiral forum :

I'm speachless. Fucking great idea !!!!!!!!!!

Another USB, another leak, another site

One more song from the list on year zero has been decorated with coloured spots over the night; then there has been a show in Manchester; an USB has been found with In This Twilight on it along with an image leading to yet a newly born site-Hollywood in memoriam.

The summary of the craziness around the new album is very well put together on this site - not only it has the 4 so far leaks but there are links to all the crazy sites allegedly connected with NIИ.

And a news dated 25_02_2007 from NIN Hot line :
Year Zero listening part
We've heard via SMS messaging that Spiral members attending the Manchester show tonight got a special treat: "Spiral members went in expecting a sound check and instead got pizza (in your face ninjaw) and Trent turning up saying 'soundchecks are boring - listen to this' and they got to listen to the whole new album ‘Year Zero’. Agree that’s its like the soundtrack to a movie you have never seen. Described it as being like prince, devo, royksop with a large dollop of noise. Equally catchy and dense. Has all the old NIN elements we would recognise but is brand new too."

Now is that fair ????

Of course not - I know I'm one of the many NIИ fans all over the world that would give their right hand for the chance to had been there.

But...OMG...that one is a killer...the pizza mentioned... :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Friday, February 23, 2007

My horoscope for 23/02/2007

Listening to other people is a lot easier than listening to yourself right now -- there is a lot of internal chatter going on in your brain, and it might not be making a whole lot of sense to you. Your subconscious is working through issues and ideas that you might not be fully aware of. Things will come to the surface and start to make sense later, when it's time to act. So for now, try to distract yourself by getting with the people you love and keeping things light and fun.

They keep on guessing right...

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Erase and rewind

The best thing about my Barcelona trip was that I dared to do it. A few months ago I thought all of that was impossible. And I thought so because I knew myself. And it turned out I didn’t know me. It’s great to surprise yourself. The best thing is that now I won’t just sit in front of my PC monitor wondering what it feels like to be at a NIИ concert. Now I know “this is what it feels like”.

Changes are a good thing.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

19 02 2007 Razzmatazz, Barcelona, Spain

I need to focus. And I need to sleep. But most of all I need to get my hands on more NiN concert tickets.
I wrote that entry yesterday. I’m putting it in my blog as it was written – chaotic, rough and somewhat sleazy. That was me yesterday.
15 hours later and still all I can say is : He’s a man of flesh and blood ! And, oh, errr…there are tears in my eyes - I don’t know why. I’ll blame it on the lack of sleep…for now.
The first thing to do when I get home is to check if there are any tickets left for March 21, 24 and 29. I have to make sure.
Something has happened. The chain of good events got broken. Or maybe I’m wrong. Maybe I’m out of perspective at the moment and I can’t appreciate what is presented to me. This is what happens when you want something so bad. I wanted it all but I didn’t get it. Patience. Just be patient. – Yeah, I know. It’s just that I feel quite miserable at the moment; that’s all.
I was afraid to look at the stage. Little fragments of the concert start to pop up on the surface and to form a clearer memory of last night-just like pieces of a puzzle they form a picture. Just like that one: everyone from the band got on stage and Mr.R came last through clouds of smoke – lame but very impressive. One moment the place was empty; the next moment he was already there. I couldn’t help screaming. And I screamed throughout that hour and a half. On numerous occasions some girls tried to push me out of my spot but I just pushed back-there was no way I was moving from there.
I’m constantly on the edge of bursting into tears but it shouldn’t count-I guess it’s a normal reaction.
I feel special though-being probably the only Bulgarian at that show.
OK, it WAS shocking - facing my dream. A dream I’ve had half my conscious life; a dream I thought was impossible; it was shocking to see that dream in flesh 7 feet away from me.
Memories are a blur still.
I got in front of Razzmatazz at 4.30 PM. NIИ started at 9.30 pm. 5 impossible hours of waiting.
At 4.30 pm there was already a small group of about 15 Spirales waiting at The Spiral entrance. I couldn’t take my eyes off of them-the first NIИ fans to see in my life ! They were all Spanish and they knew each other apparently – talking and laughing all the time. I spent an hour sitting on the steps of the club next to them waiting for the box office to open and to pick up my ticket. Luckily Josep showed up at 5.30 PM; he was very sweet asking “Are you balance ?”. I was so glad to have a company; someone to talk to; and I couldn’t stop talking. At some point I felt really embarrassed but he said “It’s not a problem; I just don’t talk much”.
I was second row; all the other Spirales were first row. Being in the second row is good-1st row makes good defense against metal bars in front of the stage.
When the crowd was jumping I wasn’t – I was afraid not to smash someone’s feet; with those combat boots I wouldn’t feel it until someone screams in pain. Not that I would’ve heard it.
Being so close to the stage surely is a compromise with the quality of sound. But…nothing compares with being showered with water spilled from the bottles by the man himself ! Yeah, it’s a fan talk – but I am a fan.
ERASER was demolishing. I wanted to die right there on the spot. Just as I wanted that when Josep told me there had been Meet & Greet the day before at about 5 PM; and that if I had happened to be there I might had had a chance to get in and be present. Blast ! And a second blast !!
I had a chance to by a tour T-shirt but I missed it because I wanted to take a good spot. Next time; thank god there’ll be a next time.
It was already passing 6.30 PM when the box office finally opened. By that time I was completely mad-checking the time every 5 min; it was cold, I was freezing. Josep just said “It’s Spain”. Huh !
I GOT MY TICKET !!!! I literally jumped at the end of The Spiral queue and some moron from the club came to tell me I wasn’t suppose to wait there because by the regulations only 18 people were supposed to wait in that line ?! WTF ?!? So me and Josep just kept on waiting right in front of The Spiral sign making jokes about the Spirales because as if they were imprisoned between the metal bars. Josep said it probably makes them look cool. Oh…whatever. Finally a woman from the band’s entourage showed up and told us that of course we have the right to wait with the other Spirales since we were from the fan club. Justice was served ! And I did get in an hour earlier than everybody else ! It’s good to be a Spiraler !!!
I almost cried during HURT although I heard almost nothing of it because everybody was singing along. And THE FRAGILE in an almost acoustic version – oh, dear…
And we were the first to hear SURVIVALISM live !!! It was funny : “You may have heard we have a new album coming soon. If you haven’t I’m telling you – we have a new album coming soon. It will be out for real in April but you can steal it probably in a couple of weeks. ”. Really ?! You don’t say ! Who knew ?! :))))
Next time I’ll be with a white T-shirt. Wearing a black uniform is not very funny.
I’ve been away from the country for just a few days but I find it quite hard to adjust to…everything that was BEFORE. I went to a coffee shop and I almost ordered in English. I listen now to people around me and what they talk about seems ridiculous. I look at people in search of the NIИ logo on their clothes but there is none; in the same time it feels as if that logo is imprinted on my forehead. I feel an urge to stop people and tell them: I’ve been to my first NIИ concert !!! First but not last. That is some consolation to hold on to not to fall into pieces.
At this hour yesterday I was hundreds of miles west sitting on steps of Razzmatazz !!!
I can’t write a concert review. I suffer from serious emotional exhaustion. I can’t smile right now. Maybe I just need some sleep. Hopefully that is all I need. My head feels like a balloon .
No, I didn’t bring any NIИ souvenirs. I brought back a broken mind.
I want more. And more. And more.
It’s not wrong to want more of what makes you feel good, is it ?
Was it worth it ?
Hell, yeah !
Would I do it again ?
You bet !
Nothing compares to chasing a dream.

19 02 2007 Razzmatazz, Barcelona, Spain - The set list
1 Pinion
2 Wish
3 The Collector
4 Heresy
5 Terrible Lie
6 Piggy
7 Closer
8 The Becoming
9 Deep
10 Help MeI'm In Hell
11 Eraser
12 Reptile
13 The Fragile
14 Survivalism
15 Only
16 Suck
17 You Know What You Are
18 Hurt
19 Hand That Feeds
20 Head Like A Hole

SURVIVALISM - live for the first time ever !!!


Pictures from the show

It’s obvious what’s on the left side of the photo. And what’s on the right side contains Me, I’m not. And it was found in Razzmatazz. On Feb 19. By a fan. Unfortunately not by me. I had no idea I was suppose to be looking for anything. Next thing fans will come to the shows equipped with spy gadgets and metal detectors.

Saturday, February 17, 2007


Did I just criticise Trent Reznor in my previous entry ?!?

I am all alone this time around

I am not happy with how the YZ mess unfolds.
I'm not happy to listen My Violent Heart an Survivalism on myspace in a crappy quality.
I’m not happy to listen to bits; it’s like looking at fragments of a picture-I can’t see the whole thing.

Anyway, that is what I do the whole morning - I have listened to the new songs at least 10 times each already . The song hits the end and I press “play” again. And again. There’s no place for discouraging yet – I just have to remember how long it took me to like The Day The World Went Away (years; now I adore every second of it).

Friday, February 16, 2007

Trent's blog on The Spiral

An update :

02/16/07 : everybody's got one

Exciting times. Maddening times. Somebody needs to get the internet working in Europe for one.
The term "marketing" sure is a frustrating one for me at the moment. What you are now starting to experience IS "year zero". It's not some kind of gimmick to get you to buy a record - it IS the art form... and we're just getting started. Hope you enjoy the ride.

I want one

A message from TR

Posted on ; later it turned out that was the offficial Year Zero press releaese :

nine inch nails presents new album: year zero
A message from Trent:

"This record began as an experiment with noise on a laptop in a bus on tour somewhere. That sound led to a daydream about the end of the world. That daydream stuck with me and over time revealed itself to be much more. I believe sometimes you have a choice in what inspiration you choose to follow and other times you really don't. This record is the latter. Once I tuned into it, everything fell into place... as if it were meant to be. With a framework established, the songs were very easy to write. Things started happening in my "real" life that blurred the lines of what was fiction and what wasn't. The record turned out to be more than a just a record in scale, as you will see over time.

Part one is year zero. Concept record. Sixteen tracks. All written and performed by me, produced / programmed by me and Atticus Ross, mixed by Alan Moulder, mastered by Brian "Big Bass" Gardner. Release date: April 17, 2007.

What's it about? Well, it takes place about fifteen years in the future. Things are not good. If you imagine a world where greed and power continue to run their likely course, you'll have an idea of the backdrop. The world has reached the breaking point - politically, spiritually and ecologically. Written from various perspectives of people in this world, "year zero" examines various viewpoints set against an impending moment of truth. How does it sound? You will hear for yourself soon enough, but given the point of this document is to provide information...

This record is much more of a "sound collage" than recent efforts from me.

A lot of it was improvised.

It is very tedious describing your own music.

It's not just music.

It's probably too long, but it felt like the right thing to do to paint the complete picture.

It will sound different after a few listens.

You can think about it and it will reveal more than you were expecting.

You can dance to a lot of it.

You can fuck to a lot of it (maybe all of it depending on what you're into)."

As if it wasn't complicated enough already...

What the fuck is he up to ?!?

I surely hope we won’t have to play the new album backwards…’cause I don’t know how it is done anyway.

What's happening is far too complex...I'm not sure that anyone can see the whole picture apart from the people behind it. I'm so confused...can't manage even to read all the's amazing though...something memorable is a way I feel like a part of it...still very confusing...perhaps because of the politics...revolution ??? The Spiral Army :)))))))))

I kept on reading...I'm starting to freak out but this time it has nothing to do with my's not just music's frightening

Thank god not everything is so serious and mysterious - "Closer" was rated the #2 Sexiest Song of All Time by AOL Music's Top 69 Hottest Love Songs.

The setlist for 2007_02_15 - Madrid, Spain [La Riviera] :

Mr. Self Destruct
March Of The Pigs
No You Don't
The Becoming
Help Me I Am In Hell
La Mer
Into The Void
The Day The World Went Away
Dead Souls
The Hand That Feeds
Head Like A Hole

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Lovely, lovely, lovely

I listen to my intuition today and so far it tells me right. As if the sun shines especially for me today. As if someone is watching over me from above and I hail back greeting.

It’s one of those good-to-be-me days when the world seems like an amusement park and I have a free ride.

There must have been happy coincidences before…before my eyes were closed to everything. Now I see happy coincidences everywhere.

Ain't life beautiful !

The coloured song has leaked

Does that mean we have your blessing Mr.Reznor ?

Hmmm, My Violent Heart is on my D:
To listen or not to listen ?

OMFG !!!!!!!!!
There has been a M & G in Madrid yesterday !!!!!!!!!


The setlist for Madrid's Valentine :

The Collector
Terrible Lie
The Becoming
Love Is Not Enough
The Fragile
Gave Up
Hand That Feeds
Head Like A Hole

Taken from The Spiral forum :
I didn´t think it was possible to top the Sunday in Lisbon, but, tonight´s show has done that. With Heresy and the M&G/Soundcheck..... He introduced Reptile by saying that since it was Valentine´s Day, we deserved a good song.

Of course I listened.

My heart sings :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

The man is like a train in motion – there's no stoping it.
Thank you.

I’ve never thought I’ll say that; I’ve never thought it would even cross my mind but right now I feel so proud to be a NIИ fan !!!

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

I'm losing ground


Oh, and the current front page photo :

And also some coloured spots appeared on YZ mini-site :

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Three shows in a row

And the setlist for Lisbon, Portugal-2007_12_02_Coliseum

01. Pinion
02. Love Is Not Enough
03. Sin
04. Terrible Lie
05. March of the Pigs
06. The Line Begins To Blur
07. Closer
08. Reptile
09. Even Deeper (Trent said this song is one of his Fragile's favourites)
10. Help Me I Am In Hell
11. Eraser
12. The Fragile
13. La Mer
14. Into the Void
15. Wish
16. Deep
17. Get Down Make Love
18. Down In It
- Trent thanks to Portugal for the 3 days, says Lisbon was the best place to open the 2007 perfomance and NIN will come back soon -
19. The Hand That Feeds
20. Head Like a Hole

I keep torturing myself reading concert reviews saying “That was the best show I’ve ever seen !!!”. Like that one, copied from The Spiral forum page :
OMG you guys O_O IT WAS THE BEST NIGHT EVER!!!!! I'm totally fucked up though LOL everything hurts BUT IT WAS SO WORTH IT!!! 1ST CONCERT, FRONT ROW, NINE INCH NAILS, AND I'M ALIVE! YESS!!

Monday, February 12, 2007

Thank god for the Internet

And f*** Homelan for leaving me to agonyze for almost 4 days !

Finally all the tracks are revealed :

Titles seem...too political...should I begin to worry ??? What is he up to ?! I hope he's not running for president...I mean...I can't vote since I'm not an US citizen :)))))))))))

02/10/07 : onward
On my way to the first show! I can't believe I'm back on tour right now... what am I doing?? Regardless, aside from some jetlag we are ready to go! See you soon.

Current Mood: Excited

Setlist for 2007_02_10 - Lisbon, Portugal [Coliseu dos Recreios] :

01] Pilgrimage
[02] Mr. Self-Destruct
[03] Last
[04] Terrible Lie
[05] March of the Pigs
[06] The Line Begins to Blur
[07] Something I Can Never Have
[08] Closer
[09] Burn
[10] Help Me I Am In Hell
[11] Eraser
[12] La Mer
[13] Into the Void
[14] Wish
[15] No, You Don't
[16] Only
[17] You Know What You Are?
[18] Hurt
[19] The Hand That Feeds
[20] Head Like a Hole

Setlist for 2007_02_11 - Lisbon, Portugal [Coliseu dos Recreios] :

01] Somewhat Damaged
[02] You Know What You Are
[03] We're In This Together
[04] March Of The Pigs
[05] Closer
[06] Burn
[07] Reptile
[08] Ruiner
[09] Wish
[10] Gave Up
[11] With Teeth
[12] Dead Souls
[13] Suck
[16] Eraser
[17] Only
[18] Hurt
[19] The Hand That Feeds
[20] Head Like A Hole

And a bunch of 10_02_2007 photos from a Portuguese website.

Friday, February 09, 2007

Third song title added

Visual haiku

Lucky Portuguese

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Second song title added

This is how it beggins

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

A good day indeed

Two updates on Trent’s blog in just 24 hours :

02/05/07 : a good evening

I've come to appreciate the fleeting times in life where one can feel truly satisfied and at peace. For me, listening back to your finished record for the first time is one of those moments. I've just had that experience and I feel good. REALLY good! I am excited and proud and I can't wait for you guys to see and hear what's coming...

Current Mood: Excited

02/05/07 : AND THAT IS THAT.

I am sitting at mastering, which means "year zero" is finished!

Current Mood: Happy
My current mood ? ABSOLUTE BLISS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Plus the Year Zero page gets an update every few hours and new studio photos keep popping out which makes the game of hide and seek quite thrilling !!!!

I want to scream
I want to dance
Life is good :))))))))))

Saturday, February 03, 2007

YZ 3

It is just beyond any possibility “Year Zero” to be a wordless piece of work. Why do I keep thinking that there might be no lyrics to it ?

Year Zero page

Simply brilliant.

Friday, February 02, 2007

Work in progress

I'm addicted - can't get enough of those photos :)))

My sweet shadow by angelreich

Just a beautiful photo I found on deviantart

Good news, great news

According to the latest update on NIИ’s performance page the support act for a part of the upcoming 2007 European tour will be the British group Ladytron.
Way to go guys !!!

Oh, dear, it is already the 2nd of February. And on February 19-th I'll be standing in line at The Spiral entrance to get in here :

Razzmatazz, Barcelona, Spain

Thursday, February 01, 2007

Cool : )))))))))


01/31/07 : THE TRUTH

Sex! Lies! Leaks! Videotape! Who knows what to believe anymore?
Here's two facts for you:
1. I've read a bit of what you're expecting the record to be like or about, and none of you have any idea what you're in store for.
2. We're finishing the last song right now.

Teaser :)))

Oh, well...

It looks like I can only be idiotically cheerful all the time or I’d better shoot myself (“’cause that’s all it takes to buy a gun”). And that is how it will be until I learn better. One step at a time.