Monday, September 26, 2016


I thought I was falling into depression. It turned out that all needed was new music. Music, of everything else, is what can pull me back to balance whenever I tilt.

Monday, September 19, 2016

Trick of light

Sunday, September 11, 2016


I figured out why I am so addicted to concerts.

I'm attuned to the pain around. There's a lot of it, all the time, everywhere. But I can't switch myself off meaning that there isn't a single awake moment when I am not affected by the awareness that right now someone somewhere suffers. Yes, it sounds pretentious and pompous but that doesn't make it any less true. I'm just that way and I can't help it. 

But when I go to a concert, a miracle happens: this feeling is blocked and all I feel is the rapture, the freedom, the excitement of the show and the pure joy of being alive. When I'm at a concert there is no pain, only ultimate happiness; and life is perfect.

Monday, September 05, 2016

(a) wish

I'm in a dire need of something to look forward to. I look at my life as it is now and it's empty of genuine happiness - the kind that shields against any rock that life throws at you and makes it bounce back leaving you unharmed and willing to smile. It's what makes the difference between life and existence, is it not?

Sunday, September 04, 2016

Audacious...or simply practical?

I was wondering. 

If two people are in love, and enjoy each other's company more than anyone else's, and it feels great, and they are happy to have found each other, then why it should be necessary for them to take their relationship to the next level and move in together thus risking to lose what they already have? I am serious. Why do successful couples feel compelled to start actually living together? Hasn't it occurred to anyone to keep on dating forever? I don't say that everyone should do it but the way I see it it's just as good an option and no one is even considering it and I don't understand why. Aging is mandatory and unavoidable, death is mandatory and unavoidable...but basically everything else is. It makes perfect sense to me not to fix something that isn't broken.

But then again a good part of what other people do doesn't make sense to me. I am pretty sure that's one of the reasons not only to remain single but also to know I am better off that way. Not better, period, just better off. That's not choosing the better of two goods, it's choosing the lesser of two evils. It's quite simple. Nothing is perfect anyway but it can be at least less complicated.