Saturday, April 30, 2016


I just I witnessed something strange but quite touching.

I'm at the bus stop and I hear the sound of car horns blowing - not really loudly though, not in an alarming road-rage style manner. Two cars pull over - a young man comes out from the second car, from the first car - a young woman. They slowly, somewhat in a carefree way, approach each other. I’m expecting high-pitched voices, some yelling and manic gestures - the usual post-accident behavior. There is none of it. The boy and the girl just walk towards one another and...hug. A long hug, some 10 seconds. Then they go to check the back of the girl’s car (so there was a collision of some sort after all) and then… another long hug, even longer than the first one. And then they get on their cars and drive away.

And I watch all that, stunned, warmth in my heart.

Friday, April 29, 2016

Embrace diversity

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?” - Matthew 7:3

OK, I confess, I had to Google that one. All I can say about the Bible is that: 1) I know there's such a thing as “the Bible”; 2) I know it's a book and that no one knows whom it had been written by; 3) I know that by reasons, inexplicable to my 21-century questioning mind of a 40-something independent female, that book had been used, successfully at that, to shape the destiny of the world as we today know it; 4) I know that the correct spelling is with a capital “B”.

Obviously my knowledge of the Bible amounts to zero. I'm not proud to be ignorant about the Bible, I'm simply clarifying.

The reason for using this particular quote is not its source but its popularity and the message in it: don't judge other people's flaws while staying blind about your own imperfections. In even less words: don't be a hypocritical asshole.

I should know. And I do know. About imperfections that is. My own, I mean. Other people's I pay as much attention as to a flock of birds in the sky: I watch them as they fly by and once they're gone the image is gone too. I register and delete.

There used to be a time, a significant part of my life actually, stigmatized by the wearing question “What is wrong with me? Why am I not like the rest?”

Pity to realize now that all that time and the pain along with it has been in vain, wasted. I was younger then and time wasn't as valuable as it is now.

I thought I wasn't normal.

Now I know that. And I’m perfectly fine with it because: No one is normal.

There isn't such a thing as “normal” when it comes to humans. In theory there could be but only in a laboratory, in a controlled environment, protected from any hazardous influence. Such human being would set the standard and would be the norm.

However, all of us live in the real world and the reality of it is different for each of us. Therefore, each and everyone has no choice but to show deviations from the norm.

Have you collected pebbles at the beach? They are all shaped differently because they have been rubbed by the water in a different way. Every pebble is unique and so are we, humans.

I'm not normal… but neither are you. And that's OK. Now that's finally OK.

Saturday, April 23, 2016


Prince is dead.

How can that even be?!

To me artistic talent is a manifestation of divinity and deities are by default immortal. That is why when an immensely talented human being leaves the world of the living it not only makes me deeply sad but literally sends shockwaves that shake the grounds of my entire existence. I start questioning everything that I have taken to be unquestionable the same way I would if all of a sudden gravity stopped working.

It's just that some people are so inhumanely talented that I forget that this talent is caged in a frail body that is susceptible to the same physical laws that apply to each and everyone without exception.

He was one of the few genuine “one of a kind “.


Thursday, April 21, 2016

The adorable Loti

Today my boss brought her 5-month old Chihuahua puppy to work. I couldn't help myself :)

I + puppy = awww :)

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Rules for life

- one step at a time
- no expectations
- no regrets
- use your brain
- always show appreciation
- never let anger get the better of you
- don't judge

It would've been a lot easier to live by these rules if people didn't get in the way all the time... but then again no one said it would be easy to begin with. That's the problem isn't it? No one says anything. Curiously too few ask questions. Stupid pride? Or just stupid?

No matter how disgusted sometimes you are with life, no matter how low it can bring you down, no matter how thick the darkness around you might get, no matter how lost you might feel... there is one thing I am 100 % certain about - hate is not the answer. Hate is never the answer to anything.

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Same old, same old

One of the things that bother me most is stupidity. Not the everyday idiocy that irritates the hell out of me and serves as a perpetual self-control test ride - there is no cure for that. I mean the big-scale stupidity, the blissful shortsightedness, the convenient oblivion. The humanity is as such for some 10000 years already (plus/minus a millennium but who’s counting) and has remained pretty much the same since the dawn of time. Sure, it has undergone some serious cosmetic upgrades, the society now abides by more human-friendly laws but the nature of people has remained more or less intact. Through technology the people of today have can have instant access to every knowledge possible and all that is required of them is the effort to reach out to it and connect the dots.

But they fucking don't.

Instead of benefiting from the lessons of the past every generation makes the inexplicable choice to reinvent the wheel for itself (breaking news: it is still the same wheel - through and through). And so, instead of concentrating on dealing with the most nagging problems in a creative and, presumably, more effective way humanity prefers to be stuck in the mud of conformity and inexcusable ignorance. Why inexcusable? Because the world of today is indeed connected, more than ever before, and more than ever before awareness is needed. The butterfly effect is no fiction, it's just that we're all butterflies.

This world is in the fast lane to hell, and speeding up.

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Suicide Squad - Blitz Trailer

And I just looooove it!

Sunday, April 10, 2016


In times of trouble there is no other choice but to remain optimistic. And fake it 'till you make it. I wish I could push "forward" and find myself in three weeks from now when everything will already be OK. Everything will be OK. I will have it no other way.