Daily WTF

Hmm, as hours pass the day seems more and more like one of those days when you realize that getting out of bed in the morning was a very bad decision. What is wrong with people?! I don’t suppose one wakes up and says: Today I’m going to behave like an ass. OK, I can’t change your mind but could at least inform me in advance? ‘cause I feel like a complete moron when I treat you like a person and you answer either with hostility or ignorance (I’m not sure which is worse).

There, my daily share of bitching. Better to blog about it than to smash my colleague’s face. Oh, how my fists itch.

I need the tour dates...ASAP please!

I thought a few days would be enough to get over TR’s farewell announcement, that I’d get used to the abruptly readjusted near future and get over it. I’m still waiting for that to happen because ever since I’m in a state of almost constant whimper. That made me much sadder than I thought it would. Fuck.

Hey, it’s Feb 19th!

And that means I have an anniversary-2 years since my first NiN concert. What happened then in Barcelona now seems so distant and strange as if it happened to someone else…or in another life.

How proud I was of myself for jumping into the unknown despite all my fears. How alive I felt, how special (was I really the only Bulgarian at Razzmatazz that night?) and how badly I wanted to wrap the feeling and lock it in a vault. How shocked I was to see TR in the flesh so close; how afraid I was not to pass out ;) How sad I was later on when it was all over. It all comes back to life like a suddenly remembered dream…but it wasn’t a dream. It really happened.

Happy anniversary to me.

Existential

Well, it is a matter of life and fantastic life as far as I’m concerned ;)
Should I apply for an US visa? Now that NiN teamed up with Jane’s Addiction I have not one but two reasons to fly across the Atlantic. I can not even imagine what an offspring will that alliance give birth to but it’s going to be so remarkably unique that I’ll be sorry as hell if I don’t at least try. Oh why am I not a millionaire? So many concerts on the wish list…and the trouble is the more I see the more I want. Such as life.
Wow, to listen to Dave’s guitar…nevermind his god-like looks…that’s a bonus :)))

I’m not ready to say goodbye yet :(

“In NIN world, 2009 marks the 20th anniversary of our first releases. I've been thinking for some time now it's time to make NIN disappear for a while. Last year's "Lights in the Sky" tour was something I'm quite proud of and seems like the culmination of what I could pull off in terms of an elaborate production. It was also quite difficult to pull off technically and physically night after night and left us all a bit dazed. After some thought, we decided to book a last run of shows across the globe this year. The approach to these shows is quite different from last year - much more raw, spontaneous and less scripted. Fun for us and a different way for you to see us and wave goodbye.”

Posted by Trent Reznor on nin.com, Feb 16^th 2009

devastating

adjective

1. annihilative, annihilating, devastating, withering
wreaking or capable of wreaking complete destruction; "possessing annihilative power"; "a devastating hurricane"; "the guns opened a withering fire"

2. crushing, devastating
physically or spiritually devastating; often used in combination; "a crushing blow"; "a crushing rejection"; "bone-crushing"

Is this the end of a beautiful friendship?

My ticket arrived :)

Yeap! It is final now-on May the 1^st here’s where I’ll be:

Event: Alec Empire
Venue: Underworld, Camden
174 Camden High Street
Camden Town
London, United Kingdom NW1 0NE

watching live this:

Hell yes!

After all no one can grant my wishes better than me.

The inevitable getting near

On Thursday my dog had a stroke. He feels much better now-cheerful and full of life almost as before. I feel better too already-at least I don’t cry all the time. I don’t remember ever being in so much pain. I don’t want to hear anything on destiny and fairness. Life’s unfair. Period.