To be happier than in 2014. Not that 2014 was bad; on the contrary-I did good this year, very good in fact, and I guess I just have to keep on. And on, and on. You know what they say-practice makes perfect.
Winter is in full force. It's -10°C, snow piles everywhere, thick ice on the sidewalks. Cold is very deinspiring-it takes full control of my mind. So much for the power of thought. It is unfair that I keep on aging even when all life freezes.
I can't remember if I wished for something specific for 2014 but whatever it was I got a lot more than I asked for. Adventures, adventures, adventures! Whatever expectations I had reality exceeded them big time. I wouldn't change a thing about the year that passed. Good for me! And for 2015 I wish... I wish sky to be the limit. And, if opportunity is presented, to challenge even that :) The older I get the less time I have to fear. I like that. I like is so much I can't wait for future to begin. So many new things to see, so many new people to meet, so much emotions to feel...hopefully a new FB cover photo ;) Sky, you have nothing on me :)
"All right," said Susan. "I'm not stupid. You're saying humans need... fantasies to make life bearable." REALLY? AS IF IT WAS SOME KIND OF PINK PILL? NO. HUMANS NEED FANTASY TO BE HUMAN. TO BE THE PLACE WHERE THE FALLING ANGEL MEETS THE RISING APE. "Tooth fairies? Hogfathers? Little—" YES. AS PRACTICE. YOU HAVE TO START OUT LEARNING TO BELIEVE THE LITTLE LIES. "So we can believe the big ones?" YES. JUSTICE. MERCY. DUTY. THAT SORT OF THING. Terry Pratchett, Hogfather No one gets a better person over night-holy or not so holy. No rest for the wicked but then again the same goes for the kind. Don't let a day of righteousness cloud your sense of proportion, that's what I'm saying.
That's not much of a choice is it? It reminds me of a Terry Pratchett quote from Witches Abroad: "The wages of sin is death but so is the salary of virtue, and at least the evil get to go home early on Fridays." You should do what you do based on who you are and not because you will get something out of it. But what do I know... For the record: I was nice. And that is all the reward I will get. There shouldn't be more than that to begin with.
The waiter at my favorite café greeted me with the formal "How are you?" but I was sincere in my "OK" reply. With age requirements lower and you need less in order to feel good. Sometimes you're happy just to have nothing taken away from you. In other words: you handle disappointments with more grace.
Yes! YES!!! This morning I checked again the Adventures In Wonderland site and, OMG! New VIP tickets put for sale! 5 minutes later I had a ticket :) I'm going to Poland :) I will have my last show after all!
A 30STM related friend (top quality friend BTW) wrote me that Suicide Squad filming is scheduled for April meaning there might not be any European shows after Poland. OK, I said to myself, so I will have to go to Poland. BUT! I just checked the Adventures In Wonderland site and...All VIP tickets are sold out! ALL! Even the most expensive options are sold out! How can this be?! My only chance to see 30 Seconds to Mars probably for the last time and I missed it :( Today I also was kind of promoted which is, of course, a good thing and I should be happy but...damn, I need my last show :(
What a pleasant discovery-to realize there is no trace of envy or bitterness in my heart. If that is my Christmas gift for this year then I'm happy. It is a gift worth cherishing.
OK, I am excited but not overly excited. Yet. I just saw a fresh announcement-30 Seconds to Mars will play in Sopot, Poland, on April 8. Hmm. Let's say I am not in the least crazy about going to Poland. Polish fans are by far the rudest I've met. However, it is my only option-at least for the time being. I don't see how the band will go to Poland and skip Western Europe. Fingers crossed!
