Insight

I figured out why I am so addicted to concerts.

I'm attuned to the pain around. There's a lot of it, all the time, everywhere. But I can't switch myself off meaning that there isn't a single awake moment when I am not affected by the awareness that right now someone somewhere suffers. Yes, it sounds pretentious and pompous but that doesn't make it any less true. I'm just that way and I can't help it. 

But when I go to a concert, a miracle happens: this feeling is blocked and all I feel is the rapture, the freedom, the excitement of the show and the pure joy of being alive. When I'm at a concert there is no pain, only ultimate happiness; and life is perfect.