Meet&Greet with 30 Seconds to Mars – Feb 25, 2014 at O2 World Berlin

Don’t be fooled by my superserious face-it was…ah…OMG, OMG, OMG! Loved every second of it and I’m so happy that finally there’s a picture of 30 Seconds to Mars and me that I can share :)))

"Was it a dream
was it a dream?"

Did I mention how happy I was? ;) HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY !

A welcome surprise

That "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger" crap...what do you know, it finally made sense. Well, there's a first time for everything.

So...

What I interpreted as betrayal turned out to be a deep concern about my well being-only expressed in a most inappropriate way. It’s good to know. Now that I’m no longer mad at my friend I can see her point. Sustaining a friendship requires balancing skills. 

Mind tricks

Things are rarely as they seem…luckily.

It's a thin line

Lord, please, don’t ever let me become self-righteous.

And thank you for the fact that I still have some true friends left.

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On Sunday I tasted betrayal and my mind is still disintegrated.

  

Spirit Of The Stairway

“The French have a phrase "The Spirit Of The Stairway" (In French: Esprit d'Escalier). It means the moment when you find the answer, but it's too late.

You're at a party and someone insults you. You have to say something. So under pressure, with everybody watching, you say something lame. But the moment you leave the party?

As you start down the stairway, then - magic. You come up with the perfect thing you should've said. The perfect crippling put-down. That's the spirit of the stairway.”

“Haunted”, Chuck Palahniuk

Up...at last

If anyone cares to know-there's a light at the end of the tunnel and this  time it is not a train. Good. The situation is far from perfect yet but at least it's not totally fucked up anymore.

A friend stabbed me in the back today and...um, not that I expected it but that kind of fits this week's profile and, further more, if she doesn't want me as a friend there's not much I can do about it, is there?

"What doesn't kill you..." sometimes reminds you to treat the ones you care about even better. So I guess in the end it was all for the better.

Some weeks are better than others

But not this one apparently. To say that this week nothing goes my way would be like saying that the great white is a big fish-it’s not untrue but doesn't even start to cover the truth.
Did I do something? Or maybe I didn't do something I should have done? I need a reason. I'm even ready to take the blame (although it just couldn't be mine) but I need a reason. Period. I need a reason because not having one makes me feel helpless, drifting.

Ah, forget it. I'll focus on the nice fact that what was is already behind. I have no other choice anyway, do I?

I'm probably just tired.  

AFI-"Burials"

I finally bothered to listen to AFI’s latest album and I really, really love it!

4:31 min

before it all crashes down again

Drama queen

How shitty can today get? I guess sky is the limit so buckle up and keep your throwing bag within reach.

Some days just go wrong from the start and that’s it.

It's one of those days when nothing makes sense and life seems nothing but sad and meaningless.

Yeah, I know, "This too shall pass". 

You know what? Fuck this. Beauty can't save me today-it's not almighty after all. As Terry Pratchett put it in one of his books: "Man, I'm so down I'm already seeing lighting fishes".  

On my toes

It’s so easy to lose it-the gentle touch, the human touch; to let your animal side get the better of you. The line is thin and when I feel I’m close to crossing it I turn to beauty for rescue. It is the faculty to appreciate beauty that divides humans from animals. How sad that that gift is wasted on many of us.

Dual

Is the morning a celebration of the birth of a new day?; or is it mourning for the death of night? When there are two sides to everything how can you know the truth?

Small window

I’m in a giving mood today-meaning that when people are trying to get advantage of me I can persuade myself that I’m actually enjoying it. Luckily it won’t last long. "useful" is not the same as "used" and I can only bear to be voluntarily used every so often but not more. Believe me, you don’t want to turn a patient man's fury against you ;)

Hip hip hooray!

At 10 AM sharp today I bought my tickets for Sofia Rocks 2014.

I’M SO HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Itchy fingers

Big day tomorrow-tickets for Sofia Rocks go on sale at 10 AM.

Precious euphoria :)

xoxoxo

My mother's reaction yesterday when I told her the news about Thirty Seconds to Mars coming to Bulgaria: "Really? REALLY?! You're taking me with you, right?; right? TELL ME I'M COMING WITH YOU!"

How do you deny such a request? You don't :) So, my mother will see Thirty Seconds to Mars :) :) :)