Raw

Every day, as I leave for work, I’m in terrific mood-because while I’m still on my way to the office I can (and I do) pretend I am not going to work but somewhere else. But once I get there there are no pink-coloured glasses that could conceal reality. 

True to the bone

“Without music to decorate it, time is just a bunch of boring production deadlines or dates by which bills must be paid.”

― Frank Zappa

Hooked

And I’m just warming up. Infatuation is my bulletproof vest against the ugliness of truth and I intend not to care what the source is as long as it works.

This track is a real treat:

I am a fan!? Oh, how nice!

That is so unexpected but this band makes me happy and I only hope it will last longer. Happiness is the ultimate priority.

Morning glimmer

My mind knows there’s nothing mystic in this world but my stubborn heart denies logic and yells at reason not to mess with beautiful delusions. Hence, I’m doomed to constant disconformity and dissatisfaction. Lovely. 

What do you know!

So far the "Fuck fear" mantra works; and it works great. How could I've been so stupid about something so simple!?

"Up in the air"

What an inspiring video! I am yet to discover in what way but as I watched it I was swept over by a very vivid illusion of total freedom. It’s a feeling worth chasing-until it’s all mine, for all times. Fuck fear.

Ouch!

Only good girls keep diaries. Bad girls don't have time.

-         Tallulah Bankhead, US movie actress (1903 - 1968)   

Conundrum

My best friend is trying to convince me that positive outlook pays off and is worth investing in the same way one would invest in a relationship and put in efforts to make it work. There’s nothing wrong with positive thinking; of course. I don’t mind other people doing it-the same way I don’t mind other people’s religious convictions. Everybody is entitled of freedom of mind and lack of one. I have to admit that positive thinking is very tempting. I do want to believe that there’s hope for this world; I do want to believe that people are generally good at heart. Even more-I need to believe that. There’s just one problem-I must have proofs. Oh, wait-aren't those proofs called “miracles”? I could use one-and then pass it on to someone else. Maybe that’s the trouble-people are not willing to share their good fortune.

 “All that is required for evil to prevail is for good men to do nothing.” True, but it comes with a catch. You can’t fight evil unless you become evil.

I’m not sure what I’m trying to say-I’m only sure that saying it will make no difference what so ever. I wish I knew what could.

My cup of tea

“What's on your mind, if you will allow the overstatement?”

Fred Allen
US radio comedian (1894 - 1956)

Fortunate detour

I was looking on YouTube for another track from The Fragile album but I ended up opening the link to this one. That space simulation is a perfect match to the sound:

I couldn’t help thinking about a certain Douglas Adams’s quote from “The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul”:

“I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be.”

Small print

Humour, like jazz music, comes in many styles that would appeal to different mindsets.  I’m an Oscar Wilde/ Bernard Shaw/Julian Barnes type meaning that if you aim to impress me with your American pie deluxe box set or a back-to-back Police Academy weekend you better give it a thought-something you've apparently failed to do initially. People are a joke to begin with–let at least making a mockery of them bear a touch of exquisiteness.

Simply Awww!-ish

Tick-tock

My sense of time gets more and more accurate. 
This night I woke up three times. The first time I said to myself “It must be 1:30.” It was 1:37.

The second time: “Now it feels like 4:00.” It was 4:02.

The third time: “It is already 6:00?” It was 5:59.

Curious and totally unusable. Ugh, that is so me. 

Expired

The one nice thing about today was finding this track. My good manners are running out of patience. I'm beginning to think that Lady Karma is cross-eyed.

Eager

Today I am totally dislocated in time. This morning I woke up at 5 AM convinced beyond any doubt that it was Saturday and I shouldn’t go to work. Just a minute ago I wrote in a document “Today, 09.04.2013, Thursday”. Tomorrow I’ll probably think it’s already next week.

I do wish time ran faster. I wish it could make a giant leap and transfer me to June. ..and pause on June for some 6 months at least.
I can't wait for the days to start so that they would end. 

Without

“Without mistakes there is no forgiving

without forgiving there is no love”

Without love there is no loss.

"The Adrenalin room"

“The Unified field” came with the most dreadful album cover art I’ve ever seen but this song is the audio equivalent of sinking into one very cozy armchair...or someone's guarding hug.

Soulmate

Such a beautiful dream-to be given the gift of a devotion that can overcome time and space, sickness and death, grief and despair; to know you are never alone, no matter what.

I want one.