Such a mess

"I wanna go home... take off this uniform and leave the show"

I wish

I feel so unreal...
it’s not my life I live
it’s not me that lives it
I wish I could feel
for once
anything…
…but
pain
bitterness
disappointment
hopelessness
I wish I could feel…
…anything…
…at all.

Thank you

One evening I was on a bus
on my way home from work
and all of a sudden
out of the blue
I felt completely
and
totally
happy…
…because…
I had my favorite music…
…Nine Inch Nails…
…in my head…
…all the time.
It was beautiful
and magical.
Thank you for the music.

Where is everybody ?

"I'd like to stay
but every day
everything pushes me further away"