A late answer
I was asked recently whether I thought that momentary happiness was not happiness at all. Well, yes, I do think so. Happiness is not about feeling high all the time. I could be happy even when I’m sad…if only I believed. Happiness is about hope and hope is about faith. And I don’t mean religion. I don’t mind if people’s minds find sanctuary in the perception of a God but that just can not work for me. Faith means security; it means trust in happy endings; it means that no matter what mess you’re in you’ll find your way out.
posted by balance at
7:56 AM
6 Comments:
In my case. I don't think hope is about faith. I have hope because I lack faith, if you know what I mean. And happiness....that depends. When I have my period there is no happiness in anything whatsoever, neither material nor spiritual nor religious, nothing.
One can believe in many things other than “a God” i.e. hope and faith is one and the same thing sometimes.
But, yes, I know what you mean. And your words surprised me-you seem to me strong enough not to have such periods. When I read your blog I can tell you are honest but I guess there are things you simply don’t write about.
Periods have been the death of me since the first one arrived all those years ago. Nik always says that the pain changes me into someone he doesn't recognise as myself.
You are right, I ma honest but there are many things I don't write about in my blog -and this is mainly because I don't want to hurt some people (self censorship is a beast).
Maybe I should start a new blog and write everything ah ah. That's a great idea actually!!
Do you have any idea what causes those periods? Any explanation what so ever? If you know the reason you can easily fight those moods and push them back to where they’ve come from.
A new blog…it just might work, I don’t know…that’s what my note book is for-to keep my worst secret thoughts. I do not know why I feel ashamed of them-I shouldn’t be but I know why you try to protect your dearest ones-you want to spare them the guilt although it is not their fault when you feel bad.
As if I can read between your lines. That is why it took me so long to answer…it’s hard to express in words what I feel in my guts.
Yes, I think I will create something called 'Mizzi's blog of self loathing' and write in there all the nice things I think about myself. ahhahahahahahha that will be good.
I know why I have the period pains; it is both physical and psychological, because in my family it is an inevitability. Shit.
I think I will create something called 'Mizzi's blog of self loathing' and write in there all the nice things I think about myself
Please do so – you’ll get tones of responses that’ll show you what your friends see in you and I assure you it is not what you’re beating yourself over. A different perspective is always refreshing.
I know why I have the period pains; it is both physical and psychological, because in my family it is an inevitability. Shit.
Shit indeed. One of my closest friends is like that and pain killers doesn’t seem to help anymore.
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